BODENG DAILY HEALTH CHECKLIST

Tips that will help ME feel better & become an energetic person. Following the tips every day will let ME work more & sleep better.

1. Sleeping well.

o I will never eat or drink too late – it’s better to eat a tasty cake or drink a cup of tea next morning.

o I will never do strenuous exercises close to bedtime because my body needs to relax before getting some shut-eye.

o I will say \"No!\" to spicy foods, caffeine & alcohol.

o I will drink a cup of warm milk each evening at least 1 hour before I sleep. Milk helps calm my brain as it contains tryptophan.

o I will sleep at least 7 hours each day to renew your body.

o I will try to go to bed and get up at approximately the same time each day. My established sleep pattern will help my body complete all necessary internal processes.

2. Healthy Eating.

o I will create and use a daily health journal to make records on your daily nutrition.

o I will decrease the carbohydrate consumption to reduce the extra calories of my body.

o I will try to drink plenty of water each day to reduce the chance of my body getting disease affected.

o I will consume a lot of vegetables and fresh fruits as a part of my healthy nutrition.

o I will avoid eating fried meals and snack food because they can cause problems with your stomach and metabolism.

o I will not consume alcohol regularly. I may drink a little on holidays.

3. Exercising.

o I will practice breathing. I will learn to do special breathing exercises each morning to energize my body and clean up my lungs.

o I will do stretching. When my body is inflexible you get many troubles. I will consider doing simple yet effective stretching exercises each morning. I can incorporate meditation, breathing and stretching with yoga.

o I will meditate every day. Psychologists suggest meditating on a regular basis. Many daily health reports and surveys prove that meditation purifies the mind, body and soul of an individual. It is also a great stress buster that can relieve you from various diseases.

4. Hygiene: Skin, Teeth, Body.

o My skin protection is a critical part of the daily health routine.

o I will use my beauty products to protect my face, arms, neck and hands and prevent my skin from tanning.

o I will regularly moisturize my skin to give it a healthy glow.

o I will use cosmetics which include only natural ingredients.

o I will wash your face and body each day before going to bed and brush my teeth two times every day. I will use chewing gums after each food intake.

5. Medication.

o I will integrate meds in my daily life.

o I will use a pill box to prepare my meds in advance.

by: bodengdeng

BETWEEN LOVE AND SEXUALITY

Being born in an ultra-conservative society has suppressed the so-called knowing and trusting the sexuality I possess when I was young. Speaking of which, people in the village are all well culturally inclined to what is acceptable and seemingly scare away what is evil that include improper behavior for both men and women. Unfortunately, the only education I digested from my inner family circle is how to survive life in the wild. Never heard of things pertaining to freedom of sexuality and acceptance of what makes you are or who you are. Surviving life in the wild I have said entails of using your physical strength, making use of instincts and trusting the spiritual side of life wherein for me is such a confusing matter when I was young (you know like they teach you a bout God and you see them acting fearfully against unknown or unseen being and spirit that roam around the earth ~ which I thought is unlikely cause if you believe in a supreme being you should not really be afraid of anything that is unknown or unseen, I thought that when I was young). Public education will bring you general knowledge, standard knowledge rather. You have to dig deeper and ask in order to learn things which are not taught in the four walls of classroom. When I was young and innocent I always wonder what it means to people their sexuality, and when innocence was no more I always ask myself how to reconcile love and sexuality when I feel like the rest of the world isn’t having the dilemma I have been hording everyday of my younger years.

FAMILY AND INDEPENDENCE. It was a huge wave of transformation. I have learned first to become independent rather that believing my sexuality. In search of truth, I turn my back away from family and find friendship with butterflies and dove that never flies. It was a great time of experiencing the youth. The wildest of it all. You can feel the very pleasure deeply in the tissue of your flesh and marrow of your bones. Met Glen the superstar, and Jet the lady of the night, few friends in their most purest from of being. They know themselves well and taught me to face life as a different person, we move in the darkest of night and enjoy life to the fullest everyday. It’s true, everybody gets tired of what is not fulfilling and when everything is merely a fascination. Each one of us has find the road in life that is not fitting for everybody. Back then I realize how our friendship curve my sexuality. I was a fairy that never had a wing but believe I can fly.

SPIRITUALITY AND BROTHERHOOD. I have found love. Love that spells as acceptance. It was a beautiful experience. People like Eddelyn, Memosa, Mike Vinco and the rest knows what it means to love and be love in return. However it was the sincerest love of all, and it my whole life I will never ever forget about it and the people of whom never account me off the love they gave willingly. To my spiritual father Ruben and Philip and spiritual mom Wilma and Florence you have no idea how much your faith has change my life and to this day I respect and love the values you have incorporate within me, each word testify the greatest love of all. It was the first time in my life that I made a choice. A choice to believe what it means to be a real man and a man of faith. Still, tough times shakes off the shafts and the impure part of my being. I was tossed and drowned, force to face the harsh reality of life and feels the pain of losing the life of people whom I turn my back. I thought I have found a lover for life too. But I found out it was only a love of a sister I had when in fact I thought we have the Eros love. It wasn’t fun at all, it was a real mess and I am grateful it ends but still it made me decide to live a single life during my twenties. Also, I had the nightmares of the past. It’s what you call letting go of the past slowly but surely, but in the process you can still taste the flavors of indulgence from time to time.

WORK AND RESPONSIBILITY. The period of life when I found rest and seek for what is not lost part of my being but of what I could do more to myself. Skills level up.

LOVE. Love never found me nor I found a love who meant me a partner in life.

SEXUALITY AND SPIRITUALITY. I could recall how desperate, exhausted and uninterested I am with life when I found the brothers who knows that love has no boundary. Once in for all, I have accepted myself as I am, as a person of male sexuality but its masculinity is not defined by society nor written by books. Because people calls it abnormality, sickness, curse and some calls it evil. But its just me and will always be me. Gentle and fragile. Nothing more and nothing less. I have no preference to what a person is nor the choice of their sexuality. Its all about trust and respect. More than two years of being alone, fighting in the world with what and who I am ends when I met Jason, I visited his house to met other guys and surprisingly I met batchoy in there, batchoy a long lost friend way back in my so called spiritual and brotherhood stage of life. It was fun, but its more than that. I was overwhelmed and grateful towards the supreme being for bringing me there. Then my horizon expanded, seeing and meeting people who believe that sexuality is never an issue between love and spirituality. Love as you are, believe as you are. You can do more when you live as you are, more of life every time you breath yourself as you are. It is beautiful being you.

Remember we exist not to please people but first being at peace with yourself and then giving life the value of what it means being you. Being you won’t break the law, it won’t hurt people and will never ever destroy the original purpose of your existence. Being you is love.

by: bodengdeng

A DAY WITHOUT THAT THE KIND FEELING

Everyday seems to be forever without that feeling of magic. Many times I know it’s not easy to live another day knowing that it will start and end with exactly the same feeling, this seems to infect my mind with a dreadful thought of living my life forever in the same way.

A day without that kind of feeling isn’t an option for me. I must have that kind of feeling. It would be a nightmare living a day without that kind of emotion. A day that would spell pain and will trouble my mind all throughout. It can spark a war and would make me feel alienated with those that surrounds me. It is far better to sleep ‘till it ache my bones than freshening myself up and going out without that feeling. I know it’s not permanent, it will fade once it reach the period maturity, especially when it receives enough sun of appreciation and water of attention. Regardless of how and when will it stop, I consider it as a part of my daily life for now. No matter how hard a day seems to be, it doesn’t matter cause that’s what makes me feel good about life.

Describing that kind of feeling isn’t easy, I couldn’t fully understand it. Expressing it in words is difficult. Let me try to compare it with some of experiences in life that would somehow decipher that kind of feeling. When I feel, it’s like the first time you made an intimate activity with your beloved. The feeling is like when someone defends you even if you don’t know each other yet scare away those that tries to harm you. It is also like when you feel the urge of making love with your partner and you end up in a bed of your neighborhood crush. The feeling is really unfamiliar, it goes deep down into my heart every time I choose to have it and stays there for the rest of the day, leaving untouched when I lay down to sleep and must be awaken every time when sun shines up.

Sad to say, it can hurt people. It could get interpreted in the other way. It could be thought of bad being disguise nicely and somehow people would think it’s not fitting. No matter what, it’s not about people. It’s about my daily life, how I live each day and each moment without regret. I can’t spend a day without this kind of feeling, I know as I have said it’s not permanent but somehow it will stay as long as the subjects stays even if not, maybe new subject will be brought into the surface.

Life has so much to offer when a person knows what he wants and live daily according to the call of his heart.

by: bodengdeng

ANG AKON LIMA KA REALIDAD

Indi bala nga manami mangabuhi nga yara sa luyo sang imo mga pinalangga, ayhan sa tupad sang imo nga uyab ukon mga kabataan man.

Sang gamay pa ako, akon natandaan kon daw ano kanami sang pamatyag nga ara ka sa luyo sang imo ginikanan. Wala ka sing may ginapaminsar nga madalom kundi nga ang gusto mo lang mag hampang, mag kaon kag mag tulog. Wala sang damo nga gamo. Wala sa sang mga bagay nga dapat atindiron. Naga hulat ka lang nga gisingon kon aga para paliguan, daw sa ano kanami batyagon sang pag paligo sang isa ka iloy, ang iya mga hapulass kag pag habon sa imo naga dala say seguridad kag pag palangga.

Apang naga lakat ang tinion, naga tubo ang mga hilamon kag naga pamunga ang mga tanom. Subong man sang kasapatan, naga damo sila kag kon kis a naga alap lag.

Indi na masaysay kon ano ang mga kabudlay ang akon naagyan. Piho gid ako may ara man nga tawo nga makahambal nga mas ma budlay pa gid ang iya inagyan, apang may yara man nga masulhay ang pag pangabuhi sugod sang umpisa tubtob nga sila nakaintindi na sa pag panglakaton diri duta. Kasakit, pag antos, pangabudlay, gutom, pag pa balhas para lang makakaon, pag yaguta kag pag pasipala sa imo isig katawo. Wala sing katapusan nga gamo. Yara ina sa kabuhi, wala nagapa bilin nga inosenti ang tawo, naga batyag indi kag naga huna huna sang mga bagay nga gakatabo.


Nagligad nga benti nuebi anyos na, pila na ka milyon ang nag taliwan kadungan man sang nag kalabuhi diri sa kalubutan. Madamo sang pamangkot, madamo man ang sabat pero wala naga hilibaot. Gani ang tagsa tagsa naga handom na lang una para sa iya kaugalingon kag ikaduha para sa iya mga pinalangga. Madamo gid ang tawo nga naga kinahanglan sang oppurtunitad para mabuhi sang maayo, layo sa malain nga pamaagi sang pag kabuhi, kag desente nga kabuhi. Sa sulod sang halos tatlo na ka dekada nga pag pang lakaton , gamay pa gid lang ang akon nahibaloan, nalab-ot kag naambitan sa sining kabuhi. Pero bisan diutay lang ang naagom ko kag na experyensyahan sa pag pangabuhi akon lang nga buot ini ipa hayag ini kag kabay nga ang maka basa sini maka pang huna huna nahanongod sa kabuhi kag sa iya rason sini.

Nag umpisa ang tanan sa PANG HUNA HUNA, Ikaduwa sa BALATYAGON, Ikatatlo sa RESPONSIBILIDAD, Ikap at sa paging INDEPENDYENTE kag ikalima sa pag PAG PADAYON PANG HUNA HUNA.

Buang lang ang wala naga pang huna huna, tongod wala ini maka intindi nga kaladlawan ang iya ginahimo kag wala sing kapuslanan. Ngaa bala kinanlan gid mag pang huna huna sang tawo sang iya kabuhi? Tungod para maangkon niya ang paghidaet kag kalipay, maging mauswag siya kag sa sina mapa ambit niya sa iban ang kaayo sang kabuhi sa iya. Indi rason nga mango ukon gungo ang utok sang isa ka tawo nga indi niya maintindihan ang mga dapat niya tun an ukon intindihon, ini tungod nga ang iya pang huna huna indi luyag nga siya mag pangabudlay sa pag paminsar kag pag bulay bulay sang mga bagay. Ayhan magasiling siya sa iya paminsaron “nga a bala nga pabudlayan ko pa ang akon kaugalingon kon pwedi man lang nga indi”.

Gamhanan ang balatyagon. Naga sakop ini sang imo paminsaron, panulok, panamil, pamatin-an kag mismo ang imo pamatyagan. Gin desensyo ang tawo nga balanse, suno sa iya gina batyag iya mabal an kong may mga bagay nga naga tublag sa iya kabuhi. Diri naga umpisa ang pag pahayag, pag upod sa kalipay, pag inaway okon pa- isa bilang pamilya kag komunidad.

Wala sang gulpyada nga responsibilidad. Naga tubo ini. Samtang lamharon pa, indi mo ma appresyar kag mabatyagan. Pero samtang naga labtong ini kag naga ka luto, kinahanglan nga imo mahibaloan mag dala sini kay kon indi maga hatag ini sang madamo nga klase nga komplikasyon okun ang gintawag nga kapid sang pag ka irresponsible. Manami batyagon kon ikaw isa ka responsible nga tawo, madamo ang imo mapa lipay kay tungod gina sakdag mo sila pamaagi sa pag himo sang naga ka dapat kag naka angay. Sa umpisa manlang mabulo budlay pero sa pag padayon mo hakwat sini, ikaw maanad na man lang.

Ang paging independyente naman indi lamang naga kahulogan sa pisikal nga aspeto kundi sa pang huna huna kag balatyagon man. Ayhan mabuhi ikaw nga naga isahanon pero indi ikaw mabuhi nga wala sang mga bagay nga naga hatag kalipay sa imo paminsaron kag balatyagon. Indi madali ang pag lutas, masami ang luha kaupod sini. Pero sa tagsa ka luha nga naga agay sa imo guya naga esplekar ini sang dapat mo maintindihan kag naga pa usbong sang isa ka kusog para ikaw maka tindog para sa imo kaugalingon.

Amo gani nga wala naga untat ang pag gin hawa, pag tiyog sang kalibutan kag pang pang huna huna. Indi ka mag untat, mag paminsar ka, sang mga bagay nga gusto mo himuon kag sa adlaw adlaw tinguhae nga ubrahon ini kag batyagon mo nga ang mga handom mo indi malayo tungod ikaw naga pang lakaton padulong didto. Samtang wala mo ginapbay an ang imo kaugalingon kag wala mo gina apid ang imo kabuhi sa mga bagay diri sa kalibutan nga umalagi lang. Padayona ang pag pang huna huna, padayona ang pag panglakaton. Tubtob nga makalab ot ka sa gintakna mo sa imo kabuhi.

by: bodengdeng

ANG PAKPAK SANG KALIPAY

Bisan pa mabudlay gin suong ko. Nag pamuskag ako ugaling daw malayo pa mag bunga ang tanom nga kaangay ko tungod asta subong wala pa sing nga kweba kung sa diin pwedi ma gulagod sang akon nga gamhanan kag pinasahi nga instrument kag mag salo nga nagabuwsawak ko nga pag higugma. Nagapuswak nga balatyagon kaangay sang pakpak nga makusog kag naga dala sang akon lawas sa panganod.

 Ang pakpak. Gamay man ukon dako ini gid may pulos. Nagakuha ini kusog kag pwersa sa paminsaron kag ugat nga na angot sa likod sang tinuga nga nagapanag iya sini. Mahimo nga isa ini ka gahum para sa ila. Isa ka bagay nga sila lang ang gintagaan tungod indi ini naga kabagay sa iban nga tinuga. Ang pakpak gin hatag para makalupad ang tinuga, para madala siya sini sa lugar nga ginhurma sang iya pang hunahuna, kag sa pag pang lakbayon sa iya pangabuhi adlaw adlaw. Nagadala ini sang pag bag o ka pag laom sa kon anoman ang gusto nga matabo sang tinuga. Matuod gid nga ang pakpak isa ka dako nga kalipay sa tagsa tagsa ka may yara sini.

Nakalab ot na ako sa tion sang akon kabuhi nga kaangay sang isa ka pakpak nga bug os na gid, naislan na ang mga kuyos kag nangin hamtong na ang mga ugat kag balahibo sini. Sa pag padayon ko lupad may mag bagay gid nga indi ko gusto malipatan. Mga bagay nga kanami pamatyagon sa tagipusoon kag nami balik balikan sa pang huna huna. Huo, indi naton malikwan ang mga bagay nga naging rason sa pag kabalda sang pakpak, ayhan gintiro ini, naga pa dulo ini okon ayhan nasamad sang kaaway. Kon ang pakpak masamad nagadala ini sang kasakit kag pan antos sa tinuga, kag ang pag ayo sini indi basta basta. Kinahanglan niya mag pahuway kag mag panago samtang naga ugayong kag naga agwanta sang kasakit. Pero sa pag lipas sang inadlaw amat amat na ini nga naga ayo kag sa pag ayo sini, ang tinuga wala na ga panumdon kag gabatyagsang kasakit nga iya gin agyan. Naging mapagsik ini kag matinandaon, iya na nahibaluan kon pano batoan kag likawan ang mga naga samad sang iya pakpak.

Gani sa akon pag paminsaron, ang kalipay may ara man iya nga pakpak kag iya man ini gin tatap sang mayo. Kon ang kalipay yara sa imo ini isa ka proteksiyon sa pag pangasubo, isa ka dako nga pader nga naga pahamtang sa imo buot batok sa nga bagay ng gina kahadlukan mo. Ang pakpak sang kalipay may tinion nga indi mo ini mabatyagan pero ayhan ini naga pahuyos lang, ayhan nasamad sang kaaway ukon mga bagay nga matalom nga gin gamit para ini indi maka lupad para mag dala sa imo sang matawhay nga paminsaron kag bug os nga pang huna huna. Indi ka mag ka hadlok ukon mag pang duwa duwa. Ang pakpak sang kalipay liwat maga tubo kag liwat maga balik ini sa dati niya nga porma. Magadala ini liwat sa imo sang mga bagay nga imo na na experyensiyahan nga manami kag mga bagay pa gid nga sa una mo palang nga tinion mabatyagan.

Sa imo pag panglakaton subong nga bug os ang pakpak sang imo kalipay, maayo gid ina. Isa ina ka bugay kag dako nga butang nga indi mabakal ukon mabayaran. Gani tatapa ini kag indi pag pungi, pabay-i ini nga mag dala sa imo suno sa gina pitik sang imo dughan kag gina handom sang imo tagiusoon. Asta sa pag lakat sang tag sa ka adlaw, sa pag muklat sang imo mata kag sa pag piyong sini ang imo kalag kag ispirito may pag hidaet kag ang imo lawas wala sang pag antos.

Maayo lang nga pag pangabuhi sa idalom sang pakpak sang kalipay.

by: bodengdeng

SPEAKING OF ME

It’s not easy, it’s not easy to be labeled. To suffer from the pain of stereotyping. But it’s fate. It’s what life has made me to face. And I have to decided not to go with the flow nor live according to what they don’t like it to be, rather I live my life the way it is, the way I am and the way I meant to be.


Let me start with the person who are tools of my becoming. My Dad. He passed away last 2003. I always knew that there is a huge undiscovered potential relationship between me and my Dad. I was 22 back then, just starting my career life. The battle between us started ever since I was young, at the moment when life innocence was taken away from me. We are always at war of ideas and every conversation end up with disappointment. I am his favorite actually and the carrier of his first name as to the 3rd generation. Every male siblings he has is masculine, strong willed, strong character, strong physically, like every other young men in the village who loves to talk about cute girls and whom choices of dress and words are just so men. But not me, he always got pissed off on me. He always told me to be like him or the rest of my brother. I did try, try to have girls in my high school, play with cute guys and so on, I try but I just can’t force myself. So I choose to act discreet and whenever he is around I would be so compose. But he also appreciates and complimented me and that makes me cry about. He told me I’m genius, that he hopes so much about the future because I will give him success and that he said he loves me but I just have to listen to him. Those memories are killing me and seems to awaken the longing of how much I wanted to hug and spend time with him. But that’s all just in words now, that is the reality that I would never taste until I met my grave.

To my mom, I am like a king. She always innot cheering me up, my shoulder to cry on and my comforter. She gives me strength I never understood where she draw and a love I would never feel from anyone else. How could I forget how much she love me. She said I’m merciful and soft. She will never miss a kiss from me when i see or depart from her and she will always hug me back. Mom said, I am his child physically but not mentally. She said I change a lot since I left the family for college and by then when I visited her she would always tell s me how really change I am. That’s sad because she thinks she can’t influence me anymore, but it’s wrong. She would always tell me stories of how she would commend me and of how proud she is about me. She is my number fan. She say that I am a blessing and that I will bring wealth and success in the family. She said my mind is beautiful and powerful, that I think very different and she said she could not even understand me sometimes. My mom is so delicate, she is and always be delicately love by me.

Having four brothers and one sister is a regular type filipino family. But the pain of being different form them is like a knife that cuts though my skin every time they would speak to me things like why can’t you be like this, we don’t want us to be put to shame because of you, you’d better change, nothing is good with being like that, no! it can’t be – you can’t be gay!, there is a way to change you, you have to be masculine and so on and so forth. In spite of these, being the shaker of my mind I could still draw strength from them, they are my inspiration and will always be loved and help by my unconditionally.

Classmates. There are classmates who are friends, bff, acquaintances and just on lookers. But most of them would agree how coarse and boisterous I am and at the same time how sensitive and caring. To those whom I have been with, they won’t speak ill of me but will always correct me and challenge my manhood. It’s not fun rather I feel being bullied, fooled and tried. Way back elementary days am a real freak. I like girls as playmates and really hates the boys game. During high school there would be so many times that my classmates would call me a harlot like and the same codes or identity, that acutally force me act decently. 'Till college I never get too close with guys. My life revolves around with soft guys and girls who seems to be undestructive and wholesome. Generally, classmates spoke of me as being fun to be with, teaser, jolly, smiley, soft, warring lips, having an untame mouth and tongue,  and most often being mis-interpreted.

So much has been told about friendship. And every person has a unique and different stories or twist in their friendship. To my dear fiends who has been there in my hard and difficult times, I will never ever forget you and will always seek ways to be re-united with you. To my friends they say I make them laugh, I make them smile when they are gloomy, I find good stuff and things they need, a helpful person and an ideal man of life. I will never ever forget when me and my friends sit together for a coffee, diner and even just for a past time. Friends would call me barbaric, pervert, unjust, emotional, nagger, aggressive, irrational, hard hearted, notorious, careless, a loving person and a very extravagant guy. This people range from a feminist, discreet gay guys, effeminate, single mom, straight guys, loner, musician, bad temper, high class, spiritual, and even geek. Every one of them has to say about me either good or bad, I just have to listen and take them as they are.

People from work would generally comment how serious I am. How discreet and always give my favor the management. They say I am one sided and would not listen to what my co-employee would tell me. A boss killer, a snob, a power player, a gossiper and a pretender. Anyway that’s all true.

Great shift. It’s been nearly three months as of this writing this article when i left Philippines to work and live in one of the Gulf country. Some notable comments about me: bi-man, effeminate, clumsy, sociable, intolerable taste in fashion, beautiful mind, selfless, ladylike, laughing out loud, boisterous, loud, sexy, clean, arguing man, not strong will power, smiling, skillful, helpful, flirt, deviant, anti-social and always get favorited. Some are true, definite and other is just irritating. No matter what they think or tell me I am grateful. But doesn’t change who I am, the way I am and what I meant to be.

by: bodengdeng

MASADYA NGA GINAAGIHAN

MASADYA NGA GINAAGIHAN

(Una nga Bahin)

Duwa na ka bulan. Duwa na ko ka bulan sugod sang nag abot ako diri sa Saudi. Sa pag kamatood kon sa petsa ang paga istoryahan sang Setyembre disinwebe tuig dosmil dos pa ako kag ang tatlo ko ka upod nag hugpa sa airport sang Riyadh.

Madamo sang mga bagay nga naga gamo sa paminsaron ko nga gusto ko gid ipabutyag ini,  pero tatlo lang anay subong.

Una nga gusto ko ipabutyag amo ang nahanongud sa bag o ko nga ubra, daw ga lalain ako maminnsar. Indi man ini malain okon indi pabor sa akon pero daw tama gid ini ka bag o, kag nagulpihan ako nga mag ubra bilang isa ka sekretarya, ang ubra suno gid sa tinaga sini nga sekretarya. Ay ambot ah daw natak an na gid ko ya a. Ginapilit ko lang kaugalingon ko man wala man ko mahimo, kag amo man ina ang gin aplayan ko ah. Te kita mo gid lang ah, hay man nga ano gid bala ya gin putok ka botse ko? Baw ma duwa na ko di ka bulan pero ya ubra ko internet lang, pungko kag kon matak an tindog tindog kag hangaw hangaw, tsaa, pati pati sa sugo sang mga tawo diri palibot ko kag sugo man sang boss ko eh, sugo nga daw malaka pa sa isa ko nga alom sa guya! Hahahaha, ari update nalang ko pirmi ka blog ko, facebook, twitter kag kong ano ano pa. Grabe gid ya ya ya ang style nila sa ubrahanay, wala pilitay, wala pwersahanay, basta ubraha lang da ya ubra mo ah, daw sa amo na bala.

Ikaduwa nga gusto ko ipabutyag amo ang nahanugod sa kultura. Ambot ah, feeling ko wala na ko di ya freedom, wala di beer, wala live band, bar, wala tanan nga gusto ko. Te pano nalang kita sini maka lipay lipay? Baw daw wala man sang lipay lipay nga tinaga gna na lista sa bokabularyo sang mga taga diri. Kag wala man ako makita nga damo nga babayi nga naka short, naka bikini kag naka suksok sang mga malip ot ang mga suksok kaagay sang spaghetti. Hay nako makadulula gana kong paga istoryahan ang mga lalaki, pwerte ka mga urais kag mabaris mag pang ganyat sekswal, ay nako amo na gani kong may bayo palang gani naga halimuyak na ano pa gid ayhan kong hublas na! ay time bomb! Tak an ko ah.

Ikatatlo amo ang nahanongod sa mga Pilipino nga ari man diri ah. Indi ko gusto mag hambal sang mga bagay nga indi maayo kag ako man kabay nga mag himo lang pirmi sang maayo. Ay abaw, tagsa tagsa ka Pinoy may ara gid ya ya nga kinaiya nga gina biga bigaan, aside ambi sa mga sports, may ara ang sadiki – ilimnon nga makahulobog. May ara man tago nga mga relasyon eh, dyos ko kalabanan guro! Indi lang kalaban kundi daw halos tanan man ah. Indi ako bulag ah kag indi man ako bungol, sa ila mismo baba kag sungad gagwa, wala ako ga himohimo istorya guro. Kung sa agitot man damo man sila ginahimo, mahilig sila sa pagtililipon, kaon kaon, luto, inom, saot saot kag kung ano ano pa.

Wala pa ako gana subong makihalo sa gwa nga kumunidad sang mga Pinoy, diri palang gani sa gina istaran ko daw ga ka kugmat na ako sang mga balita nga akon ga ka sandadan. Maga padayon ako sa pag pahayag sang akong ginaagihan diri. Manami man nga inagyan ukon indi akon ini isulat para ma hatagan ko man ligwa ang akon pang huna huna akag tagiposoon.

by: bodengdeng

WORK ATTITUDE for SAMA

I have listed the following must be attitude with my newfound work.

WORK ATTITUDE for SAMA

1. Work with confidentiality
2. Be pleasing
3. Actively Support and Innovative
4. Polite & Respectful
5. Eagerness & willingness to work
6. Excellence in everything
7. Professionalism
8. Listen, learn & understand
9. Never Touch what is not belong to you

 Reminders

1. Do not follow bad examples
2. Do not be lazy
3. Always be you



by: bodengdeng

Tea - Camellia sinensis plant

Tea - Camellia sinensis plant


There are at least six varieties of tea: white, yellow, green, oolong, black, and pu-erh
The term "red tea" refers to an infusion made from either black tea (mainly in Chinese, Korean, Japanese and other East Asian languages) or the South African rooibos plant (containing no Camellia sinensis).

Tea is traditionally classified based on the techniques with which it is produced and processed.]
• White tea: Wilted and unoxidized
• Yellow tea: Unwilted and unoxidized, but allowed to yellow
• Green tea: Unwilted and unoxidized
• Oolong: Wilted, bruised, and partially oxidized
• Black tea: Wilted, sometimes crushed, and fully oxidized
• Post-fermented tea: Green tea that has been allowed to ferment/compost flavored variants, such as bergamot (Earl Grey), vanilla, caramel, and many others.

Flavors Sampler

Description
A wonderful introduction to the wide range of flavored teas. Each sample makes about 8-10 cups of tea.

Chocolate - Ceylon tea and rich dark chocolate flavor. Decadent chocolate liquor texture, brightened by the tang of the Ceylon.

Cinnamon - Spicy cinnamon with bright Ceylon black tea. Very warm and high cinnamon flavor, fresh with a spicy-crisp finish.

Passionfruit - Tropical passionfruit with lively black tea. Rich, fruit-floral flavor, lifted by the natural citrus of Ceylon tea.

Vanilla - Bright Ceylon tea with pure vanilla. Soothing and cozy, like warm sugar cookies made with fresh vanilla beans.

Apricot - Get whisked away to a fresh apricot orchard with our Ceylon black tea, flavored with ripe apricot. Mellow, soft cup.

Blueberry - Ceylon black tea with fresh blueberry flavor. Highly aromatic, slightly sweet, rounded texture. Perfect hot or iced!

Flavors sampler
almond, apple, apricot, blackberry, blueberry, caramel, cherry, chocolate, chocolate chip, christmas, cinnamon, coconut, cream, currant, forest berries, ginger, ginger peach, grapefruit, guanabana, hazelnut, hibiscus, lemon soleil, mango, orange, oriental spice, passionfruit, peach, pomegranate, raspberry, strawberry, sweet potato pie, toasted sesame, valentines, vanilla



by: bodengdeng

Organizing Documents for Business Services Division Head Office

It was November 10, 2010 when my Boss ask me to hand him over what's on my mind. So I submitted the following article to him.

Organizing Documents for Business Services Division Head Office
Consideration:
a. Style – the best way that works both ways or continue with existing system
b. Space – use cabinet as storage
c. Strategic Plan – recording options (those that are very important, indicate location), schedule of handling documents for filing (important, can be once or twice a month) that includes carrying out necessary change in the way documents are file according ideal preference

 Recommendation:


1. Using the 3 document filer to segregate/separate the following:
a. One for garbage – last thing to do
b. One for storage
c. One for items that will remain in the office.


2. For storage


2.1 Select a filing cabinet, space for storage
2.2 Sorting – may take time but for those that has been segregated file them later. If possible start with mixed documents. There should be no miscellaneous file to avoid unnecessary filing. Index per year if okay, Consider color for index and label. If possible alphabetical order for easy access. Separate a storage for files which are not immediately needed.


3. For Filing - sort according to: (classification must be based on large categories, then make sub-categories within the folder)or used existing folders.
3.3.1 CONTACT MANAGEMENT, CLIENT INFO & CALLING CARDS
3.3.2 LETTERS


External MEMO
a. BANK REQUEST
b. CARDS – VISA/MC/AMEX
c. COMPANY PROPOSALS
d. GCC
e. Others……


Internal MEMO
a. ADMIN REQUEST
b. ANNOUNCEMENT
c. DIRECTOR’S REQUEST
d. PERSONNEL REQUEST
e. Others…..


3.3.3 GENERAL BANKING CONTROL DEPARTMENT
a. BANKING INSPECTION
b. BANKING SUPERVISION
c. BANKING TECHNOLOGY


3.3.4 GOVERNOR & VICE GOVERNOR FOLDER – include within the IOB, Legal & Gen. Inv. Dept
3.3.5 ADMIN & FINANCE – includes admin, maintenance, security, guidance, budget, development, computer, treasury issue & SAMA branches


4 If possible create a one folder for trash – for unsure if whether a document should be disposed and filed there until you can shred


5 Create Incoming File holder, Outgoing File if needed for distribution (maybe already exist), file holder for the documents to be stored

Remarks: Select a storage space for most confidential documents. We may start filing the documents per area.If possible set enough time to go through with each documents. For Arabic, we may file as per instruction which may refer to the subject and contents, per date, or per point of origin. For most important documents, no need to store them, we could find an appropriate and accessible place

Things needed: File sorter (already in), Box or plastic, Storage areas (select), Folders (label later), Marker or Sticky File Label

by: bodengdeng

SUGGESTED TASK Business Service Division

I don't work, I play. November 4, 2010. Funny. Just have to submit the list of task as if i need to do in my work. Okay, fine here it is. And the picture attached, its a database that i made which i use to save contacts, reading materials and the likes.

SUGGESTED TASK Business Service Division

1. FILING OF DOCUMENTS – grouping as per year and point of origin

2. DOOR LABEL – conference room and cabinet & name on each cubicle

3. READING MATERIALS LISTINGS - specify location

4. OFFICE EQUIPMENT & MACHINE INVENTORY

5. INTERNAL FORM – record of pull out and others, routing memo

6. HOLIDAY FORMS – centralized

7. LETTER STANDARD – English & Arabic

8. DATABASE – contacts and relations, record business cards

9. APPOINTMENT & SCHEDULE FOLLOW UPS – weekly meeting room schedule

 

BSD Head Office

1. Filing & Arrangement of Documents

2. Business Cards Recording

3. Appointment & Schedule Recording

General Work

Assist general clerical jobs such as fax, calls, printing, photocopying, welcoming visitors, replenishing office supplies and logistic activities.

by: bodengdeng

RIYADH NEW LIFE

Written on Saturday, October 09, 2010 4:54:59 PM

In my three weeks at Arriyad, I have been hooked with tea, a unique blending of natural body aroma and their famous staple bread food.

Before reaching the land of dessert and sun, I have heard numerous news, rumors and warnings. I take heed of all those things and bear in mind that I am going there to work not for pleasure.

After sometime, I realized that Saudis work, think and act generally according to their faith, but specifically like the rest of the people of the world each person is unique, specifically working according to their education, knowledge and skills.

In my eight years of work journey, I finally feel relieved and I knew what makes me feel stable, comfortable and ease yet full of passion, dedication and positive-progressive view of life.

I remember some people who has made a difference in my career. During my college I have been connected to a local christian church in iloilo. The main church senior pastor was singaporean, eventually I worked with him for the next two years – back there I learned that singaporean people really meant what they say. They are not impartial, they show no favoritism and they are strict with schedules and commitments. They take everything with value and appreciate the things that is natural. They love to increase people knowledge and skills, they love technology and they work very hard. Back then I worked as a church admin staff. After that, I’ve tried applying for a job and had experienced of 3 days work with chinese, a chinese own company trading car parts. Later, I went to manila for a two to three weeks vacation.

When I came back to iloilo, I joined in a very glamorous company in wellness industry. Working with half-chinese half-filipino isn’t easy. Their mind revolves around the profit, strategy, various activities and countless campaign for wellness, it drives me crazy. My boss is very passionate, she care for he business very much. Nothing is impossible when she target something and work for it, with our help of course. But her style? It makes her people scared of her, though she is compassionate and godly. I lasted for nearly three years working with her and fly to Brunei as tourist together with my Aunt for a hope to find a job there directly. But I failed.

After more than a month in Brunei, I went back home iloilo and started hunting job. I landed into a new and pioneering company in wellness industry. It was owned by pure ilonggo blooded filipino. I’ve pioneered the marketing and the sales strategy and development. Naturally, My boss were very good and caring. But, they won’t tell you what’s in their mind when you are in front of them, later you will hear so many things that are both good and bad from other people whom they talked with about you. They’re late bloomers. They fancy parties and glamorous events. They have money but i find it hard to make myself feel at ease with them and value of what they have. I stayed up to six months.

I went to manila to attend an interview for a singapore job. Unfortunately I wasn’t selected for the job. In my mind I have to stay. I can’t go back to iloilo. So the project owner who facilitated the interview of the job i've applied hired me. Another fellow, illonga-filipino. She will tell you good things up front and tell bad things behind you. She’s loud and daring, I have learned from her to be a fighter and becoming more independent. I was taught to be more efficient in work and detail. To carefully notice every part of the job and seek no rest, for there is strength there is work. It goes on for another six months.

After six months, I was hired by a Korean owned company. It’s a general contractor company that manufacture aluminum, install door and window glasses, stainless products and so on. Korean people are respectful people and authoritative. They are full of energy, full of indefinable attitude of love towards their job and their worries is unbearable. It’s fun working with them. You see them changing in colors, when they talked to their boss they are saints but when the boss are gone, they are kings. Most of them are taught before hand how to act and live in Philippines, it’s pre programmed. They already knew how corrupt the government people are, they knew how poor and bad is the majority of living condition in the Philippines. They the opportunist. They waste no time. And they help each other fellow Koreans no matter if they are offended or have conflict with one another, they’re just have a loud, strong and the warring voice, but actually its their tone. I made it almost two years working with them, and if its not because of opportunity working abroad I might find myself still under their sting.

So, really on November 14, 2010 i'm 29th. When I began living my life since I was 17 I had to say i've started from zero, from nothing. Rags to rags until I develop myself progressively and convert rag things of living into real life opportunities. It's been almost 12 years now, but I never feel I that materialy stable, my satisfaction on material things somehow not bad – except for craving a condo, land, cars and guns. I feel like I just began to really work with worthwhile pay, a pay that really equates your skills and mental ability.

Now that I am here in the country of people whose belief, culture and lifestyle is so far different form mine but i'm totally in. Since i began working with them I never feel difficult to understand them and the way I looked at them. We create images and idea about people when we hear about them, yet we can only make an impression of lasting truth of what they are really like when we live and experience them.

Am still on the process of learning their ways. But with the people I worked with? They are so professional, they are the boss of their own time. They are grandeurs. Though they all look strange to me as like they are wearing a very strong facial expression and hard to reach stature. I saw them always greeting each other with the kiss of peace, they kissed each other on face and spoke some magical words i don't understand. They are very very faithful to Allah, praying five times a day. So far, I have not dine with any of them nor hang out with one of them. There’s no rush in life, they never rush with the things they do. Sooner or later I will experience their true colors and humaness.

by: bodengdeng

3 : 2 : 1 Planned Destiny? or a mere parallel of events.

Friday, July 16, 2010 at 12:50pm.

In my Life.
It's more than 2 years since I venture life in Luzon. This is the 2nd island wherein i live with. I never had a relationship, except 2 (one in high school and one in college), the last thing i know about those 2 girls is that they are both married.

The very fact that bothers me is the visibility of number 2 and it's strong energy that currently affects my entire universe and inner being.

Last 2007, I and my aunt visited her brother in Brunei, and it lasted for 2 months. She ask me to get a work permit and went back to manila for my medical. Unfortunately, I didn't pass because of the scar in my right upper lobe. They actually ask me for the 2nd time for X-Ray but it has the same result.. Funny is, i had gone 2 X-ray after that event, 1 during 2009 and the other 1 last march 2010 and the result? my lungs are cleared. Another thing, currently i am applying for a job in KSA, this is the 2nd agency i had submitted my passport. What amaze me is that, the medical clinic that diagnose me last 2007 is the same medical clinic that my current agency had scheduled me for my medical exam. Of hundreds of clinic why it has to be that clinic (ooooh for experience sake, these events makes me feel crazy or weird, something i can't explain). Okay it my 2nd time for this clinic, and i went there 2 times before finally completed my medical examination. Silly circumstances.

This application thing drive my nerves out, to sum it up, i have waited for almost 2 months now. The agency misinformed me twice on a certain matter. I had waited more than 2 weeks for my 2nd medical referral as my 1st medical referral expired because i didn't report within 1 week for medical since the referral was released, how could I? i wasn't informed. By the way, i took photo id twice for some requirements. Also this is the 2nd employer who interviewed me under the same agency.

The boarding house i currently occupied is the 2nd boarding i had rented since i worked with my 2nd company. Originally the room was a bit big so i asked the owner to divide it into 2. Because it's only the 2 of us, me and my brother is enough for a small room. My brother took 2 year course. 2 of my brothers visited me sometimes and since i rented my current boarding house there we're 2 typhoons that has taken lives of people, the first one was Ondoy and now Basyang. Previously on my 1st boarding house, i met my 2 cousins.

The current company i am working right now is the 2nd company since i went here in manila. and I have been working with them for more than 2 years. Currently, i have 2 Korean managers. The owner has 2 daughters. There are 2 families who are living inside the compound of our company. There are 2 watchman. Of four picks up, 2 we're sold and 2 left. Of many computers and printers, only 2 printers left and for Filipino staff only 2 computers are functioning well. Two air-cons was broken down. In the accounting cubicle there were 2 table but i get rid of the other one, there are two steel filing cabinet and 2 telephone lines. There are 2 water dispenser and 2 xerox copier and now both are not working haha. So much for the work avenue.

In family, we are six sibling. I'm fourth, i had 2 older brothers and 2 younger brothers. The eldest is female, she has 1 kid. The Oldest Brother has 2 kids and the 2nd to the last brother has two kids. 2 of us in the siblings are still single, me and the youngest.

Spirituality Speaking.
The current church i had affiliations with is the 2nd church where God leads me. I must admit that it's God's will for me to affiliate with MCC of QC, my 1st affiliation was in Iloilo City. This is also the second church i came to know since living here in Manila. It's more than 2 moths i have joined the group as of this writing date. Through this church, I met my 2 friends from Iloilo whom i have met for years , as in years, long years. There are 2 representative for MCCQC Marikina Support GROUP, and its gonna be our second month already.

Update ko pa to... sakit na ng ulo ko.



by: bodengdeng

I had a dream

Friday, June 11, 2010 at 10:09am.

In my dream, there's a black cat and a dog. We we're in a small very small hut as i am afraid of ghost who are flying around outside, so the black cat and dog stay with me. But in a blink of an eye, i saw myself jumping out going to a mango tree branches, as if looking and scouting the whereabouts of ghost. The dog says i should come back inside the hut and the dog just leave the door of the hut open so i could get in anytime, the black doesn't mind and suddenly i jump back into the small hut.

In a sudden blink, we had transferred into a hug house, a big house with a second floor. Then we locked the door, we worried about the holes of the house and we are afraid that the ghost will use that as entrance. Then There was two ghost knocking on the door, they say if we wont open, they will call their other hundred of ghosts to come also, but I cast them out and told them to go away and they go away but they began again to enter in the house hole. Then me, the black cat and the dog hurriedly went up to the second floor and secure ourselves so that the ghost wont find us, i am very angry and i really want to fight the ghost.

I can imagine the ghost flying around the house and on the second floor. and in my mind I really want to fight them. Then I woke up and sleep again.

by: bodengdeng

GOOD ALWAYS TRIUMPHS

April 29, 2009 2:24 PM

I thought i would never see light on the darkness i go through in the past month.
Then, suddenly the light shows up light a bright morning until it becomes full like noon.
I wish I can be happy but I always remember not to rejoice on evil.

When someone faced trouble and difficulty which make my life more comfortable is quite ironic.
But on the other hand, if that someone is hell in your life, what would you choose?

I leave God the things that I have no control.
I just trust him more daily and always standing on his promises to me.

I know, i don't own my life,
but i have to make choices according to His goodness
...and i know he will always be there... for me.

by: bodengdeng

Point of No Surrender

April 18, 2009 1:31 PM

For the past three weeks my world was bombarded with pressures and lots of strong pressing down words pass to me.
I had been pushed beyond my limits and my capabilities. My core was shaken. I feel like giving birth to a new child.
The struggle has end when I reach out to God and pray. And let the person know how I feel about his attitude.
As of this time, every things seems back to familiar, but I'm quiet doubtful of next week life

What if I fail again? What if those people who work to solve what we i need fail me?
What is I forget or my attention would be divided?

I fear for my reaction to those questions. Maybe I would give up.
Maybe I give up immediately. But wait... what if I won't surrender?
What if I continue?
What shall be the life after of these matters have been lay down.

I'm so tired. I feel like I want to go out from work now and go home.
God! I need to be still.
Be still Ramon.


by: bodengdeng

Point of No Return

April 01, 2009 8:35 AM

After two weeks of mind-bloody battle, i came right to my senses.
I caught up my self thinking of the my life, my status and my goals.
Nothing much differs, probably it's the feelings that makes it feel different

Am alright... I told myself this morning.
I know i have to move on.
I have come to the point of no return.
The stage where I have to force myself to move forward.
I'm so reluctant and lazy, but i kicked my mind to jump off and start living.

I know, life's battle differs everyday.
Problems and worries we have have many faces,
though of different nature - they're just the same killer of mind and self-esteem.
Today we can do more than yesterday and make our tomorrow great.

Listening to other people life experiences is tiring but great.
Like Jeston - a father of two at very young age,
a part of Jeff and Rollie's life and also Jona - a mistress.
Other people may seem to introduce their life to me but I'm not entertaining them.
It's crazy.

Great! life is great!
Behind of all these happenings, I'm still focus on my goals set for this year.
I know I can make it.
If I achieved 25% of it by end of March,
for sure I can have additional 25% by end of June 2009.
I just have to work hard.

Start working Ramon.


by: bodengdeng

MISSING POINT

March 28, 2009 3:47 PM


It was like hell since Monday.
I can't believe I was able to stand face to face with a person who has a very negative energy in life.
I never knew that this people live to irritate and destruct others peace.
To make the long story short, It's all about my senior Korean manager who thinks nothing but only what pleases him.
I hate to think and give attention to this matter but I feel like I'm so drained. I hate the feeling, it's like getting old faster. I hate it!

This big, fat and owl eyed Korean manager is foolish!
He don't care of others people idea, all he want is to follow his bullshit idea right now and there!!!
Gosh! I am so disappointed! I'm so tired in this whole week. NExt week is another battle.

I know I got to be strong now than before. I don't care about him. I just want to release the negative energy he bought into my universe.

I'm hopin and praying one day he would come to realize the change he need, and that change must be good and humane.
Gob bless his soul!

by: bodengdeng

COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ME

Mar 13, '09 4:27 AM

Dissenting is what I am trying to do in past two weeks. But I can't resist the flow of energy of life going into my life.
I really hate to think about me doing things I promise not to do.

Last night, me and my 4 board mates was drinking gin. We enjoy until 1:00am. We scatter and go to bed.
John was there too. I know I was hugging him tight. He's such a fucking cute, a hooker type & insincere boy.

John is nice to me. In the surface of our friendship I would rather stay. I once text him that we're better off as friends.

Last night, Jeff was there too. He's my roommate. He did not drink but just listen and eat some popcorn. He sleep ahead.

Jeff is so cute and so kind. He an Iglesia Ni Cristo church goers. I like him the way he does thing.

I woke up late today. I'm trying my best to be nice to everyone, especially my hot tempered Korean Manager - Mr. Kim.

I'm thinking of my bed. I can't wait to lie down and sleep.

NEW FEELING

Mar 7, '09 10:15 AM

ahhh...

It was Annie's idea why I'm writing this blog. And as we discuss about it, something came up - like exciting smile and quiet laugh. And what about this new feeling? Gosh! I hate to write it - but... it's all about JEFF, my new room mate. Melanie hates it - i mean the idea about JEFF, so what?!?

That's all, thank you. hE's cute.


by: bodengdeng

PRECIOUS LIFE - originally published as "understanding process"

Feb. 21st, 2009 at 1:16 PM


21 February 2009, at around 8:30am. I went outside the office to have one stick of cigar while having a cooling snowbear mint on my mouth. I was a bit shaking. But I manage to control MY tremble. After that, I went back inside and drink cold water, very cold that it feels like freezing my brain.

Interrupted by my Korean Manager Mr. Kim with his instruction for quotation of deformed bars from the supplier. Sitting in front of Mr. Kim is for 3 minutes makes my nerves rattle.

Anyway, going back to my cubicle, I just can’t stop thinking of what I want to achieve. My dreams linger on my mind as of the moment. I have no idea on what other think about their life, as for me I am very sure of what I want to hold on my very hand and experienced the most tangible success I’ve been waiting. I understand what it means to be on the process, and now I’m on it. Being in the process is not easy. I can’t describe the feeling, though I’m not in a hurry nor I’m not trying to stop the process. I understand that shortcut always not a wise choice for success. What are those plans? Are my goals feasible? Am I able to stand the test of time? And when I am there, how will I be able to handle it?

Those enumerated question makes me more excited. I know deep in my heart I am very prepared. Preparation consists of factors that involved all my being – I mean my mind, my physical condition, my faith and my determination to achieve it.

Later I will enumerate things I want to see happen in my life. This moment, I want to re-validate my 2009 year-end goals. I’m actually almost 20% complete on it. Of 6 desired goals, one of them is now visible moving towards its fulfillment. I know I need to rewrite the six things I want to accomplish this year. I believe this tablet of writing will continuously remind me, arouse my core and intensify my will to get it. On the top of the list – I will get rid of all my fats, 2nd is to get my own place to stay, third is having a laptop on my birthday on Nov 14, 4th is to save additional money amounted to 50,000PHP, 5th is living within my means which is 2,500 per 15 days and lastly celebrate life with someone. Previously, I was talking 20 percent completion of my 2009 goals, yes, I’m moving along with it. It’s now middle of the first quarter, by ends o march I will do my best to hit 25% completion.

Going back, my long-term dreams are very impossible if I depend on my senses. But I believe I was created to live above what the temporary or the visible aspect. I believe I was born for something, something that will glorify my creator, something that is beyond others expectation. Compared to how I live and what I have now, those dreams we’re just a pieces of wish I can have that thing that will never touch reality. But my life nor as I view it, it’s is perfectly the irony of my dreams. What I mean here is the impossibility of making those dreams possible. I believe it not me; I mean the player is not totally me. God. I knew it, but I fully understand by responsibility, the weights of those dreams are not easy to carry. But my sanity is quite strong and it proves within me that I can handle it orderly.

I call my dreams as simple and ordinary, because I’ve seen lots of individual who have been there. Though journey would be different, I know I will be there too. Again, I hope this tablet of writing will continuously remind me, arouse my core and intensify my will to get it, so in the end my pursuit will be fruitful. I know I’m ready, it’s been long 5 years of being pregnant with these dreams, not I know maturity is now visible, like a distance in the dessert where clouds and sand meets as though as if it’s the dead end. Also it like viewing as far as where the sea water and the clouds met. I just took a deep breath; at last I’m able to draw the matter of my dreams in writing.

MY LONG TERM PLANS:

1. THE NECCESSITY: MISSIONARYMAN
Specifications: jail/prison & tribal outreach, massive salvation preaching, dedicated word and spirit worship to everlasting GOD. KICK-OFF DATE: now; END DATE: progressive; REALIZATION PERIOD: 1st quarter of year 2006

2. THE EXTRAVAGANT: BUSINESSMAN
Specifications: Business worth 5M inclusive of spa-2.5m, food-1m, farming-.75m, black crv type car-.75m; KICK OFF DATE: January 1, 2016 @35. END DATE: progressive

3. THE PROCREATION: MARRIEDMAN
Specifications: who’s the girl? Just watch out! WHEN: December 31, 2014 @33

So, that’s it. I knew I still have long road to go through. Though the path may be stepped, rough, dusty and darkest valleys still my heart will always cling to the most HIGH, my only source of dreams and pure happiness.


by: bodengdeng

SCHOOL HIGH - nonmusical

February 16th, 2009

CAUTION: CONFIDENTIAL!


School High was the most amazing, wonderful and the fantastic part of my life!


And now, here we are again… after 11 years we’ve met and bonded. Like before, we have the same feelings for each other… nothing changes much with our relationship. The matter that puzzles everyone is the experience we’ve gone through in life, at work, love affairs, physical change of course, places we’ve reached and life advancement when it comes to material things.


100% I’m satisfied, the longing I had in past ten years was completely filled. I always wonder where my best of friends gone and become. We’re now reunited, and being connected with each other, we started to dream for something, yes, we wanted to put up a business… whatever…


Let me share with you some of my school high scoop.


Sometimes in 2007, I’ve manage to have coffee and shot of drinks with Dondon and Simon, the latest? Dondon got married and now located at Bacolod – I guess Canlaon but believe me he’s guy who had a high school affair with one of my friend and later had connection with my other friend too. Simon had two little cute boys and a cute baby girl.

I was surprise to met Joan one time when I was still in Iloilo, when I was going back home to the country, he sat beside me during my ride. We had a short talk, as far as I could remember – he was telling that he stop for two years after high school and that time we met he was still in college somewhere nearby Passi city.


Once a month in 2008, I saw Grezie and Roselyn. Though Grezie and I texted each other regularly we hadn’t made any plans to met and bond together. I heard a lot of rumor regarding Grezie’s love affair with you know… and with you know… but know I think she settle down to a guy named __________ blank… whos the guy? Tell me…. Lovelyn was surprise to met me too, but I didn’t. She tried to tease me of my feminity but I just ignore it. Who cares?!? Also I’d like to mention Biclar, Gilbert, Robert, Dominador, Tsukie, Irene, Darlyn my online best-buddy now (same with Cynthia) I visited Darlyn’s house about a year ago, I’m with Irene that time. Fortunately Irene and I spend a very short time before she leave for Canada, but I’m happy Cynthia is there also.


I peek to some of Benedict photos – he’s accountant now, licensed I mean! Also, I’m missing Goldrose – the great mouth! Rhea Joy – the great teeth! Ivan – color it black! Randy – with a vamps teeth. Jennifer - blessed with a younger husband hehehe.


Cove my dearest friend in elementary and who else?… can’t name anymore. Well, Im dying to see Gherlyn, but I heard she’s now married, she’s my crush in elementary and she don’t know that. By the way, on the other side of the road with people like Artchie – now worked in Chevrolet Iloilo – unluckily I didn’t attend his wedding), Rayman (policeman – now in bacolod), Gygen (sailorman? No news), Celso the policeman whom I don’t know where he is now?)– all of them we’re my elementary buddies, add also Josie.


Some guys are now on the other side of life, life Rey Balbon and Annalyn Gammelon. Gosh, they we’re so young to depart from earth’s face. God bless their soul.How tragic isn’t? Noel also mention Arly – is he really dead?


There’s so many faces in my mind of people in my high school life but I can’t remember their names exactly, maybe because we’re not that close. Now the best part, the closest of the closest…. Friends are truly a gift, a relationship that lasts forever and makes the world fun to live with.


Met Noel – the sailorman! The arab looks, the height and the aura! But he’s a father now. Irish is the girl! A very discreet but inward aggressive type girl, as of the date she’s 2 months preggy for noel’s sake hehehehe.


So, do you know that weird people just got even weirder?! Just kidding, I’m talking of Lumie – gosh! Of all female in our batch she’s different. She now a professional medical transcriptionist, she worked for Arab docs for about 4 years maybe in KSA, also married and luckily still not a mommy, joke!
Nothing makes life perfect, instead it becomes more imperfect with we come to know people who don’t want to be perfect! Know Marchell and you’ll be shocked! She bind herself to a guy whom happen to be a sailorman too. She has a great job, a great body mass too, hehehe the hanger type! Kidding! She’s actually a martyr in her own way! She mention that her dad and her bro and sis stay with her.


Lastly, leolyn. the most aggressive mother of all, ( a mother of two kids and a wife to one plus one plus one, just kidding) hahahahaha (leolyn if you’re reading, hehehe sorry, I love you friend.!). I really love this friend of mine, she’s so girly you know! With soft attractive voice and the way she moves……… whew! Wow what a girl and what a poise! Hahahahha. Am getting crazy!

After all, we just need to be ourself and be happy. I miss you all guys…, About me?……………………….. nothing hehehe: Just tell me who am I to you?


bodengdeng