PRECIOUS LIFE - originally published as "understanding process"

Feb. 21st, 2009 at 1:16 PM


21 February 2009, at around 8:30am. I went outside the office to have one stick of cigar while having a cooling snowbear mint on my mouth. I was a bit shaking. But I manage to control MY tremble. After that, I went back inside and drink cold water, very cold that it feels like freezing my brain.

Interrupted by my Korean Manager Mr. Kim with his instruction for quotation of deformed bars from the supplier. Sitting in front of Mr. Kim is for 3 minutes makes my nerves rattle.

Anyway, going back to my cubicle, I just can’t stop thinking of what I want to achieve. My dreams linger on my mind as of the moment. I have no idea on what other think about their life, as for me I am very sure of what I want to hold on my very hand and experienced the most tangible success I’ve been waiting. I understand what it means to be on the process, and now I’m on it. Being in the process is not easy. I can’t describe the feeling, though I’m not in a hurry nor I’m not trying to stop the process. I understand that shortcut always not a wise choice for success. What are those plans? Are my goals feasible? Am I able to stand the test of time? And when I am there, how will I be able to handle it?

Those enumerated question makes me more excited. I know deep in my heart I am very prepared. Preparation consists of factors that involved all my being – I mean my mind, my physical condition, my faith and my determination to achieve it.

Later I will enumerate things I want to see happen in my life. This moment, I want to re-validate my 2009 year-end goals. I’m actually almost 20% complete on it. Of 6 desired goals, one of them is now visible moving towards its fulfillment. I know I need to rewrite the six things I want to accomplish this year. I believe this tablet of writing will continuously remind me, arouse my core and intensify my will to get it. On the top of the list – I will get rid of all my fats, 2nd is to get my own place to stay, third is having a laptop on my birthday on Nov 14, 4th is to save additional money amounted to 50,000PHP, 5th is living within my means which is 2,500 per 15 days and lastly celebrate life with someone. Previously, I was talking 20 percent completion of my 2009 goals, yes, I’m moving along with it. It’s now middle of the first quarter, by ends o march I will do my best to hit 25% completion.

Going back, my long-term dreams are very impossible if I depend on my senses. But I believe I was created to live above what the temporary or the visible aspect. I believe I was born for something, something that will glorify my creator, something that is beyond others expectation. Compared to how I live and what I have now, those dreams we’re just a pieces of wish I can have that thing that will never touch reality. But my life nor as I view it, it’s is perfectly the irony of my dreams. What I mean here is the impossibility of making those dreams possible. I believe it not me; I mean the player is not totally me. God. I knew it, but I fully understand by responsibility, the weights of those dreams are not easy to carry. But my sanity is quite strong and it proves within me that I can handle it orderly.

I call my dreams as simple and ordinary, because I’ve seen lots of individual who have been there. Though journey would be different, I know I will be there too. Again, I hope this tablet of writing will continuously remind me, arouse my core and intensify my will to get it, so in the end my pursuit will be fruitful. I know I’m ready, it’s been long 5 years of being pregnant with these dreams, not I know maturity is now visible, like a distance in the dessert where clouds and sand meets as though as if it’s the dead end. Also it like viewing as far as where the sea water and the clouds met. I just took a deep breath; at last I’m able to draw the matter of my dreams in writing.

MY LONG TERM PLANS:

1. THE NECCESSITY: MISSIONARYMAN
Specifications: jail/prison & tribal outreach, massive salvation preaching, dedicated word and spirit worship to everlasting GOD. KICK-OFF DATE: now; END DATE: progressive; REALIZATION PERIOD: 1st quarter of year 2006

2. THE EXTRAVAGANT: BUSINESSMAN
Specifications: Business worth 5M inclusive of spa-2.5m, food-1m, farming-.75m, black crv type car-.75m; KICK OFF DATE: January 1, 2016 @35. END DATE: progressive

3. THE PROCREATION: MARRIEDMAN
Specifications: who’s the girl? Just watch out! WHEN: December 31, 2014 @33

So, that’s it. I knew I still have long road to go through. Though the path may be stepped, rough, dusty and darkest valleys still my heart will always cling to the most HIGH, my only source of dreams and pure happiness.


by: bodengdeng