Renewed & Blessed

written on July 12th, 2009

Three weeks are gone but its stressful effects seems to fade out slowly.  Pressure from the people I’ve worked with, projects to assist and countless follow ups of all things involving my so called “accounting job”, oh what a job!

In past months I’ve been seriously  intoxicated by either beer, gin or brandy and plunge into the air of nicotine.  I feel so bad one time, I mean last Saturday and I went to see a doctor. I have difficulty with sleeping and feel pain in my chest and legs, oh what a vice!

After hearing the doctors explanation, I was relieved. It’s anxiety that make me awake all night and makes my stomach feels like being cut and being poured with vinegar. Anxiety leads to restlessness. With a handful of medicine I went home and take a rest.

I’ve got a good rest on Saturday night and feels alive and vibrant.  I went to church next day and experienced JESUS renewal.  As what the doctor says, i should give up smoking and drinking and that’s what my conscience tell me too. So, okay i said; I’m not actually dependent with cigar and liquors but for four years since 2005 I’ve been intoxicating myself.

Just now, it feels good to be free from those bad agent of deadly chemicals to my body.  I just pray JESUS will help me totally stop from my vice. Before I don’t have it but i don’t know what comes into my mind that i did it.

It’s funny. I tried it and like it and now i try to stay away from it. Crazy for good! I missed church so much. Well, it feels heaven and feels like being blessed and renewed every second of my life.

bodengdeng