BODENG DAILY HEALTH CHECKLIST

Tips that will help ME feel better & become an energetic person. Following the tips every day will let ME work more & sleep better.

1. Sleeping well.

o I will never eat or drink too late – it’s better to eat a tasty cake or drink a cup of tea next morning.

o I will never do strenuous exercises close to bedtime because my body needs to relax before getting some shut-eye.

o I will say \"No!\" to spicy foods, caffeine & alcohol.

o I will drink a cup of warm milk each evening at least 1 hour before I sleep. Milk helps calm my brain as it contains tryptophan.

o I will sleep at least 7 hours each day to renew your body.

o I will try to go to bed and get up at approximately the same time each day. My established sleep pattern will help my body complete all necessary internal processes.

2. Healthy Eating.

o I will create and use a daily health journal to make records on your daily nutrition.

o I will decrease the carbohydrate consumption to reduce the extra calories of my body.

o I will try to drink plenty of water each day to reduce the chance of my body getting disease affected.

o I will consume a lot of vegetables and fresh fruits as a part of my healthy nutrition.

o I will avoid eating fried meals and snack food because they can cause problems with your stomach and metabolism.

o I will not consume alcohol regularly. I may drink a little on holidays.

3. Exercising.

o I will practice breathing. I will learn to do special breathing exercises each morning to energize my body and clean up my lungs.

o I will do stretching. When my body is inflexible you get many troubles. I will consider doing simple yet effective stretching exercises each morning. I can incorporate meditation, breathing and stretching with yoga.

o I will meditate every day. Psychologists suggest meditating on a regular basis. Many daily health reports and surveys prove that meditation purifies the mind, body and soul of an individual. It is also a great stress buster that can relieve you from various diseases.

4. Hygiene: Skin, Teeth, Body.

o My skin protection is a critical part of the daily health routine.

o I will use my beauty products to protect my face, arms, neck and hands and prevent my skin from tanning.

o I will regularly moisturize my skin to give it a healthy glow.

o I will use cosmetics which include only natural ingredients.

o I will wash your face and body each day before going to bed and brush my teeth two times every day. I will use chewing gums after each food intake.

5. Medication.

o I will integrate meds in my daily life.

o I will use a pill box to prepare my meds in advance.

by: bodengdeng

BETWEEN LOVE AND SEXUALITY

Being born in an ultra-conservative society has suppressed the so-called knowing and trusting the sexuality I possess when I was young. Speaking of which, people in the village are all well culturally inclined to what is acceptable and seemingly scare away what is evil that include improper behavior for both men and women. Unfortunately, the only education I digested from my inner family circle is how to survive life in the wild. Never heard of things pertaining to freedom of sexuality and acceptance of what makes you are or who you are. Surviving life in the wild I have said entails of using your physical strength, making use of instincts and trusting the spiritual side of life wherein for me is such a confusing matter when I was young (you know like they teach you a bout God and you see them acting fearfully against unknown or unseen being and spirit that roam around the earth ~ which I thought is unlikely cause if you believe in a supreme being you should not really be afraid of anything that is unknown or unseen, I thought that when I was young). Public education will bring you general knowledge, standard knowledge rather. You have to dig deeper and ask in order to learn things which are not taught in the four walls of classroom. When I was young and innocent I always wonder what it means to people their sexuality, and when innocence was no more I always ask myself how to reconcile love and sexuality when I feel like the rest of the world isn’t having the dilemma I have been hording everyday of my younger years.

FAMILY AND INDEPENDENCE. It was a huge wave of transformation. I have learned first to become independent rather that believing my sexuality. In search of truth, I turn my back away from family and find friendship with butterflies and dove that never flies. It was a great time of experiencing the youth. The wildest of it all. You can feel the very pleasure deeply in the tissue of your flesh and marrow of your bones. Met Glen the superstar, and Jet the lady of the night, few friends in their most purest from of being. They know themselves well and taught me to face life as a different person, we move in the darkest of night and enjoy life to the fullest everyday. It’s true, everybody gets tired of what is not fulfilling and when everything is merely a fascination. Each one of us has find the road in life that is not fitting for everybody. Back then I realize how our friendship curve my sexuality. I was a fairy that never had a wing but believe I can fly.

SPIRITUALITY AND BROTHERHOOD. I have found love. Love that spells as acceptance. It was a beautiful experience. People like Eddelyn, Memosa, Mike Vinco and the rest knows what it means to love and be love in return. However it was the sincerest love of all, and it my whole life I will never ever forget about it and the people of whom never account me off the love they gave willingly. To my spiritual father Ruben and Philip and spiritual mom Wilma and Florence you have no idea how much your faith has change my life and to this day I respect and love the values you have incorporate within me, each word testify the greatest love of all. It was the first time in my life that I made a choice. A choice to believe what it means to be a real man and a man of faith. Still, tough times shakes off the shafts and the impure part of my being. I was tossed and drowned, force to face the harsh reality of life and feels the pain of losing the life of people whom I turn my back. I thought I have found a lover for life too. But I found out it was only a love of a sister I had when in fact I thought we have the Eros love. It wasn’t fun at all, it was a real mess and I am grateful it ends but still it made me decide to live a single life during my twenties. Also, I had the nightmares of the past. It’s what you call letting go of the past slowly but surely, but in the process you can still taste the flavors of indulgence from time to time.

WORK AND RESPONSIBILITY. The period of life when I found rest and seek for what is not lost part of my being but of what I could do more to myself. Skills level up.

LOVE. Love never found me nor I found a love who meant me a partner in life.

SEXUALITY AND SPIRITUALITY. I could recall how desperate, exhausted and uninterested I am with life when I found the brothers who knows that love has no boundary. Once in for all, I have accepted myself as I am, as a person of male sexuality but its masculinity is not defined by society nor written by books. Because people calls it abnormality, sickness, curse and some calls it evil. But its just me and will always be me. Gentle and fragile. Nothing more and nothing less. I have no preference to what a person is nor the choice of their sexuality. Its all about trust and respect. More than two years of being alone, fighting in the world with what and who I am ends when I met Jason, I visited his house to met other guys and surprisingly I met batchoy in there, batchoy a long lost friend way back in my so called spiritual and brotherhood stage of life. It was fun, but its more than that. I was overwhelmed and grateful towards the supreme being for bringing me there. Then my horizon expanded, seeing and meeting people who believe that sexuality is never an issue between love and spirituality. Love as you are, believe as you are. You can do more when you live as you are, more of life every time you breath yourself as you are. It is beautiful being you.

Remember we exist not to please people but first being at peace with yourself and then giving life the value of what it means being you. Being you won’t break the law, it won’t hurt people and will never ever destroy the original purpose of your existence. Being you is love.

by: bodengdeng

A DAY WITHOUT THAT THE KIND FEELING

Everyday seems to be forever without that feeling of magic. Many times I know it’s not easy to live another day knowing that it will start and end with exactly the same feeling, this seems to infect my mind with a dreadful thought of living my life forever in the same way.

A day without that kind of feeling isn’t an option for me. I must have that kind of feeling. It would be a nightmare living a day without that kind of emotion. A day that would spell pain and will trouble my mind all throughout. It can spark a war and would make me feel alienated with those that surrounds me. It is far better to sleep ‘till it ache my bones than freshening myself up and going out without that feeling. I know it’s not permanent, it will fade once it reach the period maturity, especially when it receives enough sun of appreciation and water of attention. Regardless of how and when will it stop, I consider it as a part of my daily life for now. No matter how hard a day seems to be, it doesn’t matter cause that’s what makes me feel good about life.

Describing that kind of feeling isn’t easy, I couldn’t fully understand it. Expressing it in words is difficult. Let me try to compare it with some of experiences in life that would somehow decipher that kind of feeling. When I feel, it’s like the first time you made an intimate activity with your beloved. The feeling is like when someone defends you even if you don’t know each other yet scare away those that tries to harm you. It is also like when you feel the urge of making love with your partner and you end up in a bed of your neighborhood crush. The feeling is really unfamiliar, it goes deep down into my heart every time I choose to have it and stays there for the rest of the day, leaving untouched when I lay down to sleep and must be awaken every time when sun shines up.

Sad to say, it can hurt people. It could get interpreted in the other way. It could be thought of bad being disguise nicely and somehow people would think it’s not fitting. No matter what, it’s not about people. It’s about my daily life, how I live each day and each moment without regret. I can’t spend a day without this kind of feeling, I know as I have said it’s not permanent but somehow it will stay as long as the subjects stays even if not, maybe new subject will be brought into the surface.

Life has so much to offer when a person knows what he wants and live daily according to the call of his heart.

by: bodengdeng

ANG AKON LIMA KA REALIDAD

Indi bala nga manami mangabuhi nga yara sa luyo sang imo mga pinalangga, ayhan sa tupad sang imo nga uyab ukon mga kabataan man.

Sang gamay pa ako, akon natandaan kon daw ano kanami sang pamatyag nga ara ka sa luyo sang imo ginikanan. Wala ka sing may ginapaminsar nga madalom kundi nga ang gusto mo lang mag hampang, mag kaon kag mag tulog. Wala sang damo nga gamo. Wala sa sang mga bagay nga dapat atindiron. Naga hulat ka lang nga gisingon kon aga para paliguan, daw sa ano kanami batyagon sang pag paligo sang isa ka iloy, ang iya mga hapulass kag pag habon sa imo naga dala say seguridad kag pag palangga.

Apang naga lakat ang tinion, naga tubo ang mga hilamon kag naga pamunga ang mga tanom. Subong man sang kasapatan, naga damo sila kag kon kis a naga alap lag.

Indi na masaysay kon ano ang mga kabudlay ang akon naagyan. Piho gid ako may ara man nga tawo nga makahambal nga mas ma budlay pa gid ang iya inagyan, apang may yara man nga masulhay ang pag pangabuhi sugod sang umpisa tubtob nga sila nakaintindi na sa pag panglakaton diri duta. Kasakit, pag antos, pangabudlay, gutom, pag pa balhas para lang makakaon, pag yaguta kag pag pasipala sa imo isig katawo. Wala sing katapusan nga gamo. Yara ina sa kabuhi, wala nagapa bilin nga inosenti ang tawo, naga batyag indi kag naga huna huna sang mga bagay nga gakatabo.


Nagligad nga benti nuebi anyos na, pila na ka milyon ang nag taliwan kadungan man sang nag kalabuhi diri sa kalubutan. Madamo sang pamangkot, madamo man ang sabat pero wala naga hilibaot. Gani ang tagsa tagsa naga handom na lang una para sa iya kaugalingon kag ikaduha para sa iya mga pinalangga. Madamo gid ang tawo nga naga kinahanglan sang oppurtunitad para mabuhi sang maayo, layo sa malain nga pamaagi sang pag kabuhi, kag desente nga kabuhi. Sa sulod sang halos tatlo na ka dekada nga pag pang lakaton , gamay pa gid lang ang akon nahibaloan, nalab-ot kag naambitan sa sining kabuhi. Pero bisan diutay lang ang naagom ko kag na experyensyahan sa pag pangabuhi akon lang nga buot ini ipa hayag ini kag kabay nga ang maka basa sini maka pang huna huna nahanongod sa kabuhi kag sa iya rason sini.

Nag umpisa ang tanan sa PANG HUNA HUNA, Ikaduwa sa BALATYAGON, Ikatatlo sa RESPONSIBILIDAD, Ikap at sa paging INDEPENDYENTE kag ikalima sa pag PAG PADAYON PANG HUNA HUNA.

Buang lang ang wala naga pang huna huna, tongod wala ini maka intindi nga kaladlawan ang iya ginahimo kag wala sing kapuslanan. Ngaa bala kinanlan gid mag pang huna huna sang tawo sang iya kabuhi? Tungod para maangkon niya ang paghidaet kag kalipay, maging mauswag siya kag sa sina mapa ambit niya sa iban ang kaayo sang kabuhi sa iya. Indi rason nga mango ukon gungo ang utok sang isa ka tawo nga indi niya maintindihan ang mga dapat niya tun an ukon intindihon, ini tungod nga ang iya pang huna huna indi luyag nga siya mag pangabudlay sa pag paminsar kag pag bulay bulay sang mga bagay. Ayhan magasiling siya sa iya paminsaron “nga a bala nga pabudlayan ko pa ang akon kaugalingon kon pwedi man lang nga indi”.

Gamhanan ang balatyagon. Naga sakop ini sang imo paminsaron, panulok, panamil, pamatin-an kag mismo ang imo pamatyagan. Gin desensyo ang tawo nga balanse, suno sa iya gina batyag iya mabal an kong may mga bagay nga naga tublag sa iya kabuhi. Diri naga umpisa ang pag pahayag, pag upod sa kalipay, pag inaway okon pa- isa bilang pamilya kag komunidad.

Wala sang gulpyada nga responsibilidad. Naga tubo ini. Samtang lamharon pa, indi mo ma appresyar kag mabatyagan. Pero samtang naga labtong ini kag naga ka luto, kinahanglan nga imo mahibaloan mag dala sini kay kon indi maga hatag ini sang madamo nga klase nga komplikasyon okun ang gintawag nga kapid sang pag ka irresponsible. Manami batyagon kon ikaw isa ka responsible nga tawo, madamo ang imo mapa lipay kay tungod gina sakdag mo sila pamaagi sa pag himo sang naga ka dapat kag naka angay. Sa umpisa manlang mabulo budlay pero sa pag padayon mo hakwat sini, ikaw maanad na man lang.

Ang paging independyente naman indi lamang naga kahulogan sa pisikal nga aspeto kundi sa pang huna huna kag balatyagon man. Ayhan mabuhi ikaw nga naga isahanon pero indi ikaw mabuhi nga wala sang mga bagay nga naga hatag kalipay sa imo paminsaron kag balatyagon. Indi madali ang pag lutas, masami ang luha kaupod sini. Pero sa tagsa ka luha nga naga agay sa imo guya naga esplekar ini sang dapat mo maintindihan kag naga pa usbong sang isa ka kusog para ikaw maka tindog para sa imo kaugalingon.

Amo gani nga wala naga untat ang pag gin hawa, pag tiyog sang kalibutan kag pang pang huna huna. Indi ka mag untat, mag paminsar ka, sang mga bagay nga gusto mo himuon kag sa adlaw adlaw tinguhae nga ubrahon ini kag batyagon mo nga ang mga handom mo indi malayo tungod ikaw naga pang lakaton padulong didto. Samtang wala mo ginapbay an ang imo kaugalingon kag wala mo gina apid ang imo kabuhi sa mga bagay diri sa kalibutan nga umalagi lang. Padayona ang pag pang huna huna, padayona ang pag panglakaton. Tubtob nga makalab ot ka sa gintakna mo sa imo kabuhi.

by: bodengdeng

ANG PAKPAK SANG KALIPAY

Bisan pa mabudlay gin suong ko. Nag pamuskag ako ugaling daw malayo pa mag bunga ang tanom nga kaangay ko tungod asta subong wala pa sing nga kweba kung sa diin pwedi ma gulagod sang akon nga gamhanan kag pinasahi nga instrument kag mag salo nga nagabuwsawak ko nga pag higugma. Nagapuswak nga balatyagon kaangay sang pakpak nga makusog kag naga dala sang akon lawas sa panganod.

 Ang pakpak. Gamay man ukon dako ini gid may pulos. Nagakuha ini kusog kag pwersa sa paminsaron kag ugat nga na angot sa likod sang tinuga nga nagapanag iya sini. Mahimo nga isa ini ka gahum para sa ila. Isa ka bagay nga sila lang ang gintagaan tungod indi ini naga kabagay sa iban nga tinuga. Ang pakpak gin hatag para makalupad ang tinuga, para madala siya sini sa lugar nga ginhurma sang iya pang hunahuna, kag sa pag pang lakbayon sa iya pangabuhi adlaw adlaw. Nagadala ini sang pag bag o ka pag laom sa kon anoman ang gusto nga matabo sang tinuga. Matuod gid nga ang pakpak isa ka dako nga kalipay sa tagsa tagsa ka may yara sini.

Nakalab ot na ako sa tion sang akon kabuhi nga kaangay sang isa ka pakpak nga bug os na gid, naislan na ang mga kuyos kag nangin hamtong na ang mga ugat kag balahibo sini. Sa pag padayon ko lupad may mag bagay gid nga indi ko gusto malipatan. Mga bagay nga kanami pamatyagon sa tagipusoon kag nami balik balikan sa pang huna huna. Huo, indi naton malikwan ang mga bagay nga naging rason sa pag kabalda sang pakpak, ayhan gintiro ini, naga pa dulo ini okon ayhan nasamad sang kaaway. Kon ang pakpak masamad nagadala ini sang kasakit kag pan antos sa tinuga, kag ang pag ayo sini indi basta basta. Kinahanglan niya mag pahuway kag mag panago samtang naga ugayong kag naga agwanta sang kasakit. Pero sa pag lipas sang inadlaw amat amat na ini nga naga ayo kag sa pag ayo sini, ang tinuga wala na ga panumdon kag gabatyagsang kasakit nga iya gin agyan. Naging mapagsik ini kag matinandaon, iya na nahibaluan kon pano batoan kag likawan ang mga naga samad sang iya pakpak.

Gani sa akon pag paminsaron, ang kalipay may ara man iya nga pakpak kag iya man ini gin tatap sang mayo. Kon ang kalipay yara sa imo ini isa ka proteksiyon sa pag pangasubo, isa ka dako nga pader nga naga pahamtang sa imo buot batok sa nga bagay ng gina kahadlukan mo. Ang pakpak sang kalipay may tinion nga indi mo ini mabatyagan pero ayhan ini naga pahuyos lang, ayhan nasamad sang kaaway ukon mga bagay nga matalom nga gin gamit para ini indi maka lupad para mag dala sa imo sang matawhay nga paminsaron kag bug os nga pang huna huna. Indi ka mag ka hadlok ukon mag pang duwa duwa. Ang pakpak sang kalipay liwat maga tubo kag liwat maga balik ini sa dati niya nga porma. Magadala ini liwat sa imo sang mga bagay nga imo na na experyensiyahan nga manami kag mga bagay pa gid nga sa una mo palang nga tinion mabatyagan.

Sa imo pag panglakaton subong nga bug os ang pakpak sang imo kalipay, maayo gid ina. Isa ina ka bugay kag dako nga butang nga indi mabakal ukon mabayaran. Gani tatapa ini kag indi pag pungi, pabay-i ini nga mag dala sa imo suno sa gina pitik sang imo dughan kag gina handom sang imo tagiusoon. Asta sa pag lakat sang tag sa ka adlaw, sa pag muklat sang imo mata kag sa pag piyong sini ang imo kalag kag ispirito may pag hidaet kag ang imo lawas wala sang pag antos.

Maayo lang nga pag pangabuhi sa idalom sang pakpak sang kalipay.

by: bodengdeng